Monday, August 2, 1999 - 4:40 PM
Welp, Mom's SunRun friends left a bit ago. What all has been going on since I last wrote? Hrm.. Ric and I moved more stuff over the weekend, I'm completely moved in basically. Except for a few odd and end little things. My fridge came in on Saturday, went grocery shopping Saturday as well. Sunday Mom's biker friends started arriving. Chuck and his wife and Jon were the first to arrive (sp?) Chuck and Jon helped move Carrie's dresser over, so that's over at my place too. Then Ghost, Alan, Ben, Pooder, MadMan, and someone else? showed up. I can't seem to think of who at the moment. Anyhow, they all sat around talking,a nd then we all went out to eat.. including Carrie of course :) After that, Chuck gave me a ride back to the house so I *finally* got to ride! woowoo, and then we sat around talking awhile longer, then Carrie and I went home. This morning, Carrie and I got up and came over here.. Everyone was sorta running late, so we went to breakfast (mom and carrie didn't go though) and then came back here.. And most of the people left, except for Ghost, Alan, and Ben, and Mom who's riding part way with them, though she's working this week. They didn't leave until 3:30 - 4:00.. Somewhere in there.. So not long ago. The house is so quiet suddenly.
Anyhow, they'll be gone until next Sunday, when they all arrive back here, and maybe with a few extra people since other people join the run later on. And then they'll all camp out here again for a night, and then take off towards Sturgis. Mom's going to be meeting back up with them at the end of the week when she's done working and coming back when they are.
Plus Shawn is going out of town on Wednesday, so no one will be here to let the dogs out, so I'll be back and forth I guess. It's going to be an awfully quiet week. Oh well :)
Tuesday, August 3, 1999 - 5:27 PM
I'm just visiting over here again, since Mom is out of town and someone has to let the dogs out. Shawn's hardly every around, so :p That leaves me ;) And Shawn is going out of town Wednesday so that just leaves me. I'm still staying at my place, but I've been coming over here during the days. It's cooler over here in Mom's house anyway.. My place is *hot*. :) Anyhow, just wanted to udpate :) Later!
Wednesday, August 4, 1999 - 2:04 PM
Today has been pretty slow. Carrie and I got up around 9 this morning, and then sorta lounged around awhile. I meant to do more cleaning, but I didnt' get much done. After awhile, maybe 11 or 12 we headed over here to Mom's. We've been basically lounging around ever since. Carrie needed a nap, so she took that, etc. Nothing all that exciting going on, just talking on IRC and wishing my internet access would work right :/ Damn Sprint. *Grumbles* Oh well.
Welp, last night I found out that Josh and Destiny are in the hospital. Apparently they got into an accident Friday night on Josh's motorcycle, by (no I'm not joking) running into a sign. Josh's arm was almost completely cut off, from what I've been told, and they basically had to resew it on. They're going to try to do surgery on it, but they're still considering amputating it. He also had some head damage and was in a coma until Monday, I think. Maybe Sunday.. not sure. They don't know when they're going to release him from the hospital. Destiny is in the hospital still too, and should be released in a couple of days. Her knee is all broken up, and she has a fracture in one of her other bones in her legs (can't remember the name of it), had some teeth knocked out, bruises everywhere, and her shoulder's pretty badly bruised, and she said a ton of road rash. But she should be alright. They said she might limp for the rest of her life though, or at least that's what Jenny told me. I hope I get to see them soon. I feel so bad for them, they must be going through hell, especially Josh. :/
Other than that, Mom's still gone obviously, and Shawn is leaving today. So I'll have to be over here more to let the dogs out and stuff. I might just stay th enight, I haven't decided yet.. :) ANyways...
Friday, August 6, 1999 - 4:35 AM
I sorta fell asleep a lot of yesterday, which sucked because I didn't mean to. I went back to my place early in the morning and then slept a lot of the day. I woke up and then fed Carrie, etc, and then hurried up to get her back over here, because I knew that the dogs needed to be let out. Anyhow, it was starting to rain, and there was a fairly bad storm, so I was hurrying. I'm back over here at Mom's now, and I'm wide awake :/ Which sucks. I should be sleeping at this time, but I'm not. Bleh. Oh well. What else? Not much ;p
Saturday, August 7, 1999 - 6:02 PM
Today, Carrie and I went to the mall with Erin and Taylor. It was alright, Erin just went to find shoes. We had Strawberry Julius's from Orange Julius too. Carrie and Taylor thought those tasted strange ;) Then we went to Duffle Bag Discount 'cause Erin had to get something there. She got a few things extra for Taylor too. Then we went to Shopko, because I needed to get Baby Orajel for Carrie, though I ended up getting formula and a Fisher-Price Kick & Play Piano.. Which cost more than I shoul dhave been spending but oh well. :p Erin got a walker thing for Taylor, and then we went through McDonalds drive through and back to my mom's, where I am at now. It was fun :P I guess :) Didn't do much else today. Yesterday I didn't do much either.. I have such a boring life! I need to clean my place.. *eek* Oh well, better go :)
Saturday, August 7, 1999 - 10:40 PM
Back again. What a boring slow day this has been. I had Shawna go to the store and get me Mountain Dew and bring it to me! And she did! Woi! :) So we visited for awhile and talked, and she saw Carrie, etc etc etc. And then she left, and I was playing with Carrie, and I'm hearing all of these loud noises. So I went outside and some guy down the street apparently was having a fireworks show. Just like on the 4th of July, in all colors and shit up in the air. Was cool. I was personally wondering if the finalie would be the police showing up, but I guess not. :) I don't know what's wrong with those people or why they were doing that today. *Shrug* But everyone on my street came out to look. It was neat. So here I am again, being bored.. :) *Sigh*
Tuesday, August 10, 1999 - 4:14 PM
Not much is going on here. The house is quiet finally. That seems like a first. I'm over at Mom's again, obviously. (I cannot update my webpage from my place yet.) All of Mom's biker friends left yesterday afternoon. They had wanted to be gone by 11, but weren't gone until like 3 or something. I don't remember what time it was. But it was pretty late. 4? :) Something like that. I came over here to Mom's Sunday evening or so.. I had ended up sleeping all day Sunday on accident. I woke up to Mom knocking on my door, and Ben was with her (Ben was the son of one of the Sun Runers, Alan's son, I think) So, I got up and got Carrie ready and we went to Mom's and then out to eat. It was Alan and Ben, MadMan, Pooder(sp?), John(sp?), Ric (my brother), Mom, me, and Carrie. We went to the truck stop, again, as usual. Was alright. Then we went back to Mom's and Pooder fell asleep as usual. I guess he got up early Monday morning and left, before I even got up. But anyway, I went home in the middle of the night with Carrie (Ric walked me) and then I got up Monday and went back to the house in time for breakfast/lunch, though as I said before Pooder had already left. So after brunch ;) We sat around, while everyone got there stuff ready to leave, decided on routes, washed bikes, etc. Then, once they left, Mom, Carrie, and I went to her work, and visited with Kris, and then we went to Shopko and to the grocery store. We had fun though, but we were both tired. Came back to the house adn didn't do much after that. I went home and went to sleep.
So it's a new day and here I am back over at Mom's. She's out of town for the day I believe, and I don't know if Shawn's back from being out of town yet. Ric left yesterday to head back to Missoula, so it's all quiet. Oh, and Carrie's asleep. :) Jennifer and her mom said they were going to stop by to see me and Carrie (of course) so I don't know when they'll get here. I have a boring life sometimes. ;) Usually ;) OH well, just wanted to update this since I had a chance =)
Thursday, August 12, 1999 - 9:47 PM
Today has been alright. I woke up early, way early, and I cleaned up some, and washed bottles, and some other dishes, took the trash out, made my phone calls and set up appointments, went to Kmart to get formula and what not, came to Mom's, let the dogs out, Carrie fell asleep, and I've been here ever since. Not all that exciting really, 'cept I'm really hungry. Hrm, I should find something to eat. Anyways, I have a few appointments on Tuesday, with Section 8 and with WIC. SHould be interesting I guess. :) I need to call Lynn tonight or something. I have to have her sign a form. So yeah, that's about the extent of my day. ;)
Sunday, August 15, 1999 - 5:30 PM
Well, today is Dad's birthday, and speaking of which, I'm going to go give him a call right now. Be right back. =)
Sunday, August 15, 1999 - 6:40 PM
Heya, got done talking to Dad and now I'm talking to Jason. Anyway, went to Kalob's birthday party yesterday. Jenny picked me up around 1:30 (well, me and Carrie) and went and picked up her sister Jessica, and Kalob. Then we went to the hospital and had a small birthday party with Destiny. Then we went to Jenny's house (after a couple more stops) well, Jenny's moms, and had the party. It was pretty fun. I sorta got stuck out there though in the end and had to call my Mom at 11:00 PM to have her pick me up. Oh well. Then I stayed last night over here at Mom's. :) So that was my day. The sad news lately is that skOt from IRC died. That was early early Friday morning, around 1:00 AM. Jason called me around 6 or so when he found out. Everyone misses him a lot and are currently putting up memorial pages for him.
Monday, August 16, 1999 - 8:53 AM
I just have not been feeling well. Told my mom last night, around 8 I guess, that I needed to get home. Next thing I know it's 7:15 AM and I'm waking up over here at Mom's. Go figure. That means I haven't been home in *2* days. My mom was there, but I haven't been. Doh. Just talked to Lynn, must go pick up forms and have Lynn sign them at 3. Talk about running late since I need those forms tomorrow. Also must gather up other stuff I need for my appointments tomorrow. *Sigh* Carrie's still sleeping, but Mom said she did *not* want to sleep last night.. She was apparently wide awake babbling to anyone who cared to listen, or no one, whichever the case was and what not. Wanted to play. Oops. And Mom was trying to get her to go to sleep because *she* needed to sleep. Finally she left her in the crib wide awake and babbling in hopes she'd fall asleep. No clue when she fell asleep but usually she's up by now so maybe it was pretty late. ;P
Have I mentioned that I just don't feel good? I practically slept all day yesterday, all of last night, and I still feel tired, not to mention that my stomach hurts pretty bad. Sucks to be me, huh?! :) *Sigh* :)
Welp, not much else to say for the moment, so ta-ta. :)
Tuesday, August 17, 1999 - 10:31 PM
Ugh, I wish I knew what was wrong with me. I seem to feel more horrid by the second. I just feel so sick.. and it feels like it's 500 degrees in here, and i'm super dizzy.. eek. Oh well huh? I'll get over it. Today was a long long day. Mom came and picked me up at 9 and we went to Helena Housing to talk to the Section 8 people. My appointment was at 9:30 but we ran a little late due to the fact that I wasn't completely ready when mom showed up to get me. So after my appointment, we ran to the doctors office, so I could drop off Medicaid cards, straighten out billing, and make an appointment for Carrie (September 2nd at 2:30, just so I don't forget ;). Then we came home. That was about .. oh.. 10:45? So then Mom was back to pick me up at 11:40 or so, and we ran back to Section 8 for my next appointment, where I sat through this introductory thing. Then Mom brought me back home again. Then at 2:40 Mom came and picked me up again and took me to WIC for my appointment there.. where they weighed Carrie (14 lbs 4 oz i think it was) and measured her (i don't have the slightest clue) and had me watch some video on feeing babies (was quite boring). Then mom brought me back home, and the poor lady went back to work yet again, as she did in betwen each appointment. Whew. Tiring day. Myabe thats why I feel so icky, but maybe it's for whatever reaosn I've been feeling icky for days. I cant' even see straight nor type correctly :( Oh well, I should get going. Bye
Wednesday, August 18, 1999 - 11:09 AM
Good morning. I don't really feel all that much better but I don't feel like complaining about that today. Was up later last night than I had wanted to be, but I got something done I felt like doing. I created a rant page. Along with it's first rant. I'm not sure that it'll get updated all that often, but I felt the need to do that last night. :) Anyway, not a whole lot to write about. I need to call my caseworker and I need to call medicaid. Yuck. I'm so sick of all these phone calls! And I should probably call Kristen and go over all the details of her watching Carrie for me while I'm at school to see if she is still willing to do it when she finds out when all I'd need her to do that :) Because if not, I'm in trouble! :P Welp, I'm gonna go for now ;) Bye :D
Thursday, August 19, 1999 - 5:41 AM
Hi! I'm just sitting over at my place.. I'm not asleep caues well I woke up. Good reason huh? I thought so. So I figured I'd write a diary entry, even though I won't be able to add it until the next time I'm at Mom's, which will probably be later on today. :) Last night sucked. All of the shit with people on IRC being so heartless and what not.. It just got to me so much. I know I don't usually talk about IRC on here much, but it really really bugged me. It was making me angry for days, how anyone could take the death of someone and make it a big joke. I mean, what kind of person laughs because of the death of a person? Apparently quite a few people do. It makes me sick. And it kept building and building until I just started crying last night and I couldn't stop. Heh, maybe I'm pathetic, as some people might think, but it makes me feel so sick to see how some people act. Is this the world I must raise my daugther in? I hate it..
Friday, August 20, 1999 - 10:27 AM
Welp, I just got home from my therapy appointment. :p I had to go visit with Lynn, who was my therapist for years. I haven't gone to see her in quite some time though. She mainly played with Carrie. :) Not a whole lot else is going on. I have tons of phone calls to make which I'll do as soon as I'm done writing this up. It seems my life is full of those these days. Nothing but phone calls. Oh well. Mom/Shawn and I had sort of had an 'argument' last night. Over my computer. It still wasn't working correctly, so the end result was Shawn fixed it for me last night, though he wasn't happy about it, Mom decided she should just *buy* me a modem, etc etc. And everyone being angry. Welp, I really couldn't wait to go home last night. Shawn was working on my computer and it didn't work at *all* when I left, so I didn't expect it to work today. But it works just fine. So that's cool. I just wish we weren't all arguing :/
School starts next Thursday. I have to get my books, though Mom's going out of town on Sunday I think, and will be gone for 2 weeks. So she won't be of much help. I gotta get books, I gotta finalize the arrangements for someone to watch Carrie while I'm at school. I don't know who's going to do that.. Either Kristen or Shawna I guess. Life is so complicated. Then I have to figure out if I'm either walking to school, or getting a taxi or what.. and I need to study so I can get my drivers permit.. Mom wants me to take that test while she's gone, so that means finding someone who can take me there.. *sighs* Plus going to the store, going to Child Care Partnerships, getting up to the Welfare office, to see about Food Stamps.. Bleh. I need my license :(
So yeah, that's basically my life. Fun huh? My classes are Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, and Friday. Monday's and Wednesdays I go from 4 pm until 7 pm, and Tuesday's and Thursdays I go from 4 pm to 5 pm. Just in case you care *Yawn* ok enough mindless rambling. ;)
Saturday, August 21, 1999 - 10:17 AM
I just woke up. :) Hehe, I was soo tired last night, I don't know why. I like didn't think I should go home because I almost fell asleep at the kitchen table last night, and Carrie didn't want to seem to sleep. So in case I went into a deep sleep and didn't wake up I figured I'd be better off where other people were. And I guess I did go into a deep sleep because I don't remember anything. That or Carrie went to sleep right away. Woke up this morning and Mom had brought goodies. Carrie now has a play gym and a new playpen and some winter/fall clothes. Really cute ones. :) Grandmothers are neat sometimes. ;) *grin* Actually Carrie could use winter clothes since she mainly only has summer ones. ;) So that's cool :) Anyways, today's skOt's funeral. So everyone's there right now. Not much else to say so bye :)
Sunday, August 22, 1999 - 5:17 PM
Life sucks. That's about all I have to say. That sums it up pretty well. If anyone sees Mike, would you please tell him that I'm looking for him? Bleh...
Monday, August 23, 1999 - 8:36 AM
Well, I'm awake, but I don't think I probably should be. :) Mike called me last night, and we talked for a couple of hours or something. He said he'll mail the paperwork for child support enforcment today. So that's good. I'm also glad I finally got to talk to him because I was starting to wonder what happened to him. So anyways, I was up pretty late and then Carrie just woke me up, so I'm up. *yawn*
I decided last night that I was going to take a break from IRC. Wish me luck, okay? :P I'm just sick of it right now, and it's wasting my time mostly. So, I'm going to attempt to stay off of it for at least awhile.
School starts Thursday, which sucks. But it's good for me and I know it. I need to get ahold of Shawna to make sure she'll watch Carrie for me, and work out how much I'm paying her. I also need to call the school and find out when I can buy my books. Much too much fun.
Mom left yesterday for Canada.. She's gonna go up to Edmonton and to Lethbridge. She'll be gone for two weeks, so she's unable to watch Carrie for me.
Well, can't think of much else to say at the moment, considering I'm still halfway asleep...
Thursday, August 26, 1999 - 10:48 AM
Welp, today I start school. I only have one class today, my computer class. And it's only an hour long, so that's not too bad. Shawna's gonna watch Carrie for me while I'm at class. I'm leaving early though 'cause I gotta buy my books and what not before class, so she'll be watching Carrie a bit longer today than she will on normal Thursdays. My class starts at 4, but I wanna leave here by 3. Class gets over at 4:50. Hrm, what else? I'm at my Mom's, obviously. :) Shawna's gonna watch her over here today. Not much is going on, I wanna straighten up the house a bit, because Lacy has been making a mess, and then get my shower, etc, get ready, and play with Carrie, and then when Shawna gets here I'll head to school. We worked out the basics on the baby-sitting arrangements, and we figure we'll finalize the details over the weekend. So that's cool. I'll be paying her probably $15 a week. That's for about 8 hours of class time for me, plus the time for me to get there and get back. So, what else? Nada. So I guess I'll write more later. =)
Friday, August 27, 1999 - 10:34 PM
Today was an okay day, I suppose. I got up and then Shawna came over, and I left to head up to the school again to get my books. There was a *long* line so I had to wait awhile, and then I got my books and I left. I ran into a few people I knew from last semester and they all asked how my baby was doing, etc. etc. It was neat. Then I came home and Shawna stayed for a few minutes and then she left. I sat around awhile and realized I needed to go to the store so I called Shawna to ask if she wanted to go with. She said yeah, so I ran over to my place, and then went by her house, and then we walked to the store and we left there, and Danielle stopped us. Talked to her for a few and the girls, wished Alicia a happy birthday, and then we continued our way home. Stopped by Shawna's real fast because she bought milk at the store and needed to drop it off at her house, and then we came back up to mom's. We sat around talking about old times and the stupid shit we used to do.. it was fun :p So she just left and here I am again. Lala :) I talked to Erin today too and she said she's leaving next week for Michigan. Interesting huh? I thought so..
Saturday, August 28, 1999 - 10:47 PM
Ahh, I'm tired. Carrie has been super cranky lately because she's teething, and it's really starting to bother her. She's been teething for a couple of months now, which is pretty early as far as teething goes. But she was only cranky some of the time then, not too much. Now she's like, cranky constantly almost. She's off of her sleeping schedual somewhat, going to bed later than usual after screaming and crying. It makes me so sad, I want to make her feel all better but I don't know how. :/ I'd do anything to make her smile again and to take away her tears and the pain, but I really can't. I gave her some tylenol today, and put some more ambesol on her gums, but it didn't seem to help much. I don't know if the tylenol helped or not because she fell asleep after awhile. She woke up in a good mood though that lasted awhile so maybe it did. She really hates the ambesol stuff though. It's supposedly cherry flavored, but I can tell by the smell it must not taste too good :p Besdies, she has no idea what I'm doing to her other than putting gross stuff in her mouth that makes her mouth feel all funny. She looks so cute when she's trying to spit it out with a numb mouth. :) She has a doctors appointment next week and I wonder if they're going to recommend I start her on other foods besides formula/breast milk. They say that it's ok now to give them other foods between 4 and 6 months, and well, she eats a ton :P *laugh* She's so chubby and cute ;) So, I dunno what they're going to tell me. I guess I'll find out. I'm not sure if she wants other foods yet.. :) We'll see.
Shawna came over for a bit today. We just hung out and talked, as usual. Nothing too interesting. Tried to keep Carrie entertained. Such luck! Anyone have any suggestions on how to cheer up a teething baby? *laugh* I could use some ;P Anyways, nothing much else to say :p
Sunday, August 29, 1999 - 9:40 PM
I got told yesterday that I have a boring diary, which I know is true. :p I'd be surprised if anyone even reads it. I guess my life just isn't exciting. ;) *Laugh* All I do is stay home and take care of Carrie, go to school, etc. Much too normal. ;) Anyways, today was a super slow day. Sat around, Shawna came over for a few, picked up the house a little, etc. Nothing much of interest. Didn't leave at all. Got class tomorrow, both classes, my computer class and then my soc class. :) Should be interesting. I keep wondering who all I'm going to run into at school that I haven't seen in a long time. Last semester I ran into people I hadn't seen in forever, so I'm sure I will this semester as well. Also I remember some people told me they'd be going to my school, I just can't remember who. So I never know who I'm going to run into. At least I'm not pregnant! *laughs* :) Not much else to say, since I have such a boring life ;) *Grin*
Monday, August 30, 1999 - 8:30 PM
Class was alright today. In my comp class, they taught us what a keyboard way *Yawn* And I got on IRC on a different net to talk to Jason, only he wasn't around, so then I got on EFnet for a minute or two, and I looked around on the web at some websites, and then class was over. Then I killed some time and then went to Soc. There were some people I knew in there.. A couple of people from my English class, and some people I knew from high school, and middle school, and Chet O'Shay was there too. The teacher had me go up in front of the class to pretend I was a new girl in Helena trying to find a place to sit at lunch and had 6 other people form a circle and linking arms to not let me in. Then she had me go inside the group and they wouldn't let me out. It was odd. And then she had everyone sit down except for me and this one guy from my English class and said we were a couple and I decided I didn't like him anymore and since he depended on me he'd fall over. Or something like that. We just basically went over what groups were and what not. Then I came home. This girl Sunny I knew from high school gave me a ride home. She told me she still talks to Daisy, an old friend of mine from middle school, said Daisy's getting married soon.. Said she still talks to Laura Lee and I said ew. Said she heard Chris Wegner got married and I confirmed it. Was an alright day. Came home, Shawna said Carrie was good and didn't cry once and had just eaten and then she left to go to a movie. So here I am. :) Anyways ;) I'm on the phone so enough rambling for now :)
Tuesday, August 31, 1999 - 12:42 AM
Well it's still basically Monday for me, but oh well. I have to go to bed soon. I just got back from running over to my place to get more diapers and other random things, and going to the store for more Mountain Dew. Go figure. :p I have class tomorrow, just comp class. I've gotta find a ride on Thursday so I can head to my doctors appointment. Well actually it's Carrie's appointment. I might have to take a cab, which sucks. :( Anyways, night :)
Tuesday, August 31, 1999 - 9:53 PM
Today was okay I guess, except Shawna got here late and I had already called the school saying I wasn't coming in so that sucked. Nothing much else has been going on. Lala. okay bye
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